january 12th, 2014: i haven't slept through the night in probably a year 

january 19th, 2014: alright. story time. 

february 2nd, 2014: okay this week didn't start off very well 

july 18th, 2014: yes i know its 4 am. 

july 20th, 2014: i've had way too much free time 

july 24th, 2014: i miss home.

july 30th, 2014: na yalo ni noda kalou 

july 31st, 2014: i never want to go home. 

september 26th, 2014: most nights at 2 am i wonder where i'll be in five. ten. fifteen years.  other nights at 2am i wonder if i'll make it that far. 

october 18th, 2014: thats it for this week i think... JUST KIDDING I FORGOT ABOUT WEDNESDAY

october 27th, 2014: this is too happy. it doesn't feel real. 

november 23rd, 2014: i had to wipe the dust off of this journal today  

january 15th, 2015: "what i said about us, was the truest thing i've ever said in my life" 

february 26th, 2015: he told everyone to come over asap, we all knew something bad happened. 

april 4th, 2015: i'm on a plane. 

june 2nd, 2014: i haven't written in so long and its giving me anxiety

june 19th, 2015: 11 days.  81 days. 

june 27th, 2015: i can't help myself but regret not spending more time with him. 

june 28th, 2015: man it felt so good to be back in his arms. 

june 30th, 2015: time is flying. 

july 1st, 2015: definitely not prepared for that. but anyways... day 1 of 730.

august 17th, 2015: i've had a really rough couple days, sometimes i think a couple weeks. 

september 9th, 2015: i feel broken. 

september 13th, 2015: the days drag on but they get easier.  they definitely get easier. 

september 27th, 2015: i'm having a writers block for my own life is that even a thing 











october 11th, 2015: another goodbye. 

october 27th, 2015: WHY

november 8th, 2015: i'm okay.